Letting Go and Letting God

By: Jennifer Ellis

John 3:8

The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.


CIC has been instrumental in my deepening relationship with the Lord. I have been stretched in many ways as I have learned to be more attentive to the Spirit.

The most dramatic of these changes has been in the way I lead and plan. When I was both WCIC-Phoenix Chapter President and Challenge Group leader at the same time, I was entrusted with many plans and decisions. My typical approach had been to set an agenda that accounted for every minute of meeting time. I would also expect to come to decisions after just one meeting with the Service Council on any issue. Although by marketplace standards this approach may seem efficient, it certainly leaves no room for the Holy Spirit to move. My first year in these leadership roles allowed me to experience some failures. While disappointing, these failures humbled me, opening me up to God’s plan for a deeper relationship with him.

That year’s Annual Conference provided renewal for many of us in my chapter, enlivening our Challenge Group. Having other devoted women reminded me of my dependence on others. We are not meant to do Christ’s work alone. Gathering with my sisters allowed me to see their gifts. 1 Corinthians 12:4, There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit, came alive to me as I grew closer to my sisters in Christ.

My Challenge Group meeting preparation changed as well. Previously, I would read the newsletter reflection and go with the first story that came to mind about that week’s topic. This process again prevented the Holy Spirit from working through me. I now spend days praying about the scripture and reflection before deciding on a story to share.

I was also inspired during a Challenge Weekend led by a sister who had never led one before. Her openness to the Holy Spirit throughout the weekend was fruitful for all who attended. She did not make a firm timeline, allowed for more sharing time, and had no problem changing plans to accommodate the needs of the group. That same weekend, I was asked to give a talk at the last minute when someone got sick, stretching me and forcing me to rely on the Holy Spirit.

Our Service Council committed to praying for a specific period of time about an issue before discussing it. We fought the urge to charge forward and kept each other accountable to resting in prayer.

Letting go is still uncomfortable for me at times, but I am grateful for the Lord’s tuning me in to his Holy Spirit and helping me to yield to it.


TAKE THE CHALLENGE: How do you see the Holy Spirit working through your brothers and sisters? What are their gifts, and how do they complement yours?