Refuge

By: Bart Tesoriero

Psalm 91: 1-2

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”


Ever since childhood I have struggled with fear. My mom told me that I even cried in my baby carriage whenever I heard a dog bark!

Recently I went through a time when I felt almost constantly barraged by feelings of anxiety, fear, and uncertainty, both at work and at home. I spent time in prayer every morning, rebuked the spirit of fear and asked others for prayer. All these actions helped, but still the feelings plagued me.

In our Leadership Institute, John Mooney taught us to personalize Psalm 91 by inserting our name wherever applicable. So I prayed, “Bart, who dwells in the shelter of the Most High, will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. Bart will say of the Lord, ‘He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.’ In you Bart places (his) trust. Surely you will save him from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence...” I did this sometimes many times a day. I gradually felt myself entering that place of inner refuge and, in due time, the oppression lifted.

In Sarah Young’s book, Jesus Calling, Jesus says to us, “I am with you in all that you do... concerned with every detail of your life... However, your awareness of my presence falters and flickers. Learn to look steadily at me in all your moments and all your circumstances.”

The Lord is teaching me to find my refuge more consistently in him and in his Word, which cannot be broken. I now check in with him more often. I’m anxious less, and enjoying it more!

 

TAKE THE CHALLENGE: What is my reaction to fear and anxiety? How does it work for me?