Tested Faith

By: Sandra Paiva

Mark 9:23-24

Jesus said to him, “If you can! Everything is possible to one who has faith.” Then the boy’s father cried out, “I do believe, help my unbelief!”


About three years ago at a CIC conference I asked for prayer from one of the brothers. I was struggling with depression, a family relationship, discouragement from underemployment, and pain in my body. I had struggled for a number of years with these same issues.  This brother told me that I was like the woman who touched the hem of Jesus’ garment. God would see me through this. He would set me free from fear and negativity. The relationship would be healed and I would turn a corner. My first reaction was to think, “How wonderful, God is finally going to heal me and change this family member.” What I didn’t realize was that God was going to change me.

On the drive to where I work is a 45 degree corner.  When it is raining it can be dangerous because it is a blind curve. In May my husband and I were in a fender bender at this very place, but we were okay; the only damage was to the car. As a result I am more careful when I drive around that corner. One day after the conference, I was again feeling discouraged after having argued with the one family member. As I drove home from work I even thought, “I guess the only way this can be resolved is if one of us dies.” Then I recalled what John Mooney had said: The Kingdom is not a place, the Kingdom is within, and the kingdom is a condition of our souls.

I realized that if the Kingdom of God was in my heart, I didn’t have to listen to that negative voice. I could have peace and joy. As I was thinking this I literally turned the corner of the road. I remembered God’s promise to me. I realized that with the help of Holy Spirit, my attitude could change.


TAKE THE CHALLENGE: How do I react when my faith is tested? How ought I react?