Torn

Luke Cahill

Jeremiah 1:7

“… You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the Lord.

I was torn as to what I should do. There was a location we were potentially interested in using for research, and I was going to need to ask a favor to get permission. This is normally something our project director would handle, but she was out of the office, so I had reluctantly agreed to do it.

I was torn as to how I should act, because my reluctance was influenced both by fear and conservative prudence. My introverted side emerges in situations that require making a request of a stranger. There is fear of rejection and apprehension because of the lack of familiarity. At the same time, the project was still a bit in flux and I knew there was a chance I would make this request for the location only to have no need of it later. There was some risk of tarnishing that relationship if we were to ask for approval and then cancel the request.  

As this internal battle waged, I asked the Holy Spirit for wisdom and courage. I decided to head to the location to make the request. As I was walking to the door, I checked my phone just as an email came through saying that the project was indeed changing scope and the location was no longer needed.

In that moment, I recalled the story of Abraham on his way to sacrifice Isaac. I almost scolded myself for the association since my situation demanded a simple stretch of my introverted tendencies, whereas Abraham was asked to kill his only son. That said, these small daily challenges and struggles are real. They aren’t easy to overcome and there are times we need to be bold and courageous as we strive for faith, integrity, and excellence in our work. In this situation, I felt that God wanted me to be willing to do the hard thing - the toil - but as with Abraham, he swooped in to save the day with his perfect timing.

TAKE THE CHALLENGE: When is it difficult to discern in your daily work life? Are you asking the Holy Spirit to help you in those moments?